Blessings and welcome Gentle Reader, I trust you are well and life flowing for you. Thank you for visiting and being part of my journey.
I woke this morning feeling lighter and clearer than I have for a while. It has been a few weeks since my last post and during that time I’ve taken a mini sabbatical and time out to reflect, review and remember past dreams, goals and aspirations.
I needed the time out as I was feeling overwhelmed, slightly confused and not sure if I was on the right path. Do you ever have these thoughts?
Debts were piling up and I felt myself getting into a inner struggle and questioning the purpose and value of my life and wondering whether I should just jack all this in and go back to being a Probation Officer!
Who Am I?
I lost my sense of perspective and was dismissive of just how far I have come and how much joy I receive from doing what I do.
Thankfully, my daily practice, support and guidance from quiet mentors and guides helped me to ride this wave and I’m back. Reaffirmed, recommitted and glad for the tunnel as it helps me appreciate the freedom and choices available to me.
Why Am I Here?
Writing is my joy and I love the way words flow through me and from your thoughtful emails and comments, I know my words inspire and touch your hearts. Thank you.
However, whilst going through my little tunnel, I lost my focus and joy for writing. Everything I wrote felt dry and stilted. Meditation went out of the window and I had to drag myself to my yoga mat to practice. In the past I would struggle through my “inner stuff”, however these days I am learning to surrender and be a witness to my behaviour and not to control and force myself to “do anything”.
Life Has Taught Me To Be Still, Have Patience And Breathe
From expereicne when in a tunnel or going through hard times I know there is joy and double rainbows waiting to greet me on the other side. So, I didn’t beat up myself, I took time out to allow myself to listen to my inner muse, and trust that whatever inner work I was going through would surface and I would return stronger, wiser and clearer.
I AM Who I AM
And so it has. This week has being AMAZING. ON Tuesday the twins and I travelled up to meet Hasina, my eldest to join her celebrate her 21st birthday . I felt so humbled and proud to be her mum. It is incredible to watch your children grow, explore their own life and know you have played a part in their growth.
Giving Thanks For The Journey
Driving home I felt years tumble of my shoulders as I recalled childhood memories of Hasina and her sisters swinging in the park, singing in the shower, Hasina’s first date, and all the other minute actions which constitute life and thought despite the trauma and unhappiness of the last few years my girls are safe, protected and very much loved by their friends and family. What more can a mother want?
Now that I’m back, I am able to see the direction life is unfolding, the projects and steps I need to take to ensure I leave a living legacy of hope and inspiration to my girls. Over the forthcoming days, weeks, months I would like to go deeper into my daily meditation practice, share with you the beauty and value of meditation and explore ways I can communicate and share “my message to the world”.
I am still working through this process; opportunities and connections are being presented as we speak so I know the future is bright. Spirit truly lights our lives and we are always safe, held, guided. As my teacher says “All is well”
As I sign off and prepare for the day, the girls are calling out “mum, we’re off”… I wish you abundant peace, joy and untold happiness.
Thanks for being in my life and allowing me to be who I Am.
What keeps you going through your tunnel and low points? Please share and remember do whatever you can to make your life healthier and brighter today.
I look forward to reading your comments and thoughts on life.
Stay Blessed and thank you.
music – Hold On Change Is Coming – Ths Sounds Of Blackness…one of my favourite pick-me-up songs.
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